Bradley//

makeoutmusic @ 2006-04-27T21:26:00

2006-04-28T04:26:55Z

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2006-04-28T04:01:50Z

sorry to all of you who added my karen o livejournal group. i deleted it.
no one replied or did anything on it.
fuck faces.

hahah just kidding.

today started like a hopeless chance but it ended amazing

2006-04-28T00:27:15Z

honestly, today turned out to be really good.

new favorite bands//

2006-04-27T05:09:26Z

makeoutmusic @ 2006-04-25T20:02:00

2006-04-26T03:03:23Z

i am exhasted, worried, and stressing out. this week needs to end much better than it started.
its so funny, when you think someone is completely clueless, but knows exactly what you are trying to hint at.
wow; i am a serious loser.

yesturday & earth day

2006-04-22T23:13:33Z

HAPPY EARTH DAY & HAPPY SUNSHINE/SUMMER-ISH/SPRING-ISH

!!!

makeoutmusic @ 2006-04-21T22:44:00

2006-04-22T05:49:17Z

today was ok. the emotions were mixed. still, my friday mornings are pretty amazing. kgrg, the laughs with kim, very interesting conversations with kids at the station, looking up hilarious lyrics with kevin, talking to heidi, pining up my jeans so erin can taper them with heidi and tanesha, drinking raseberry/almond white chocolate mochas, laughing with kim and chase, hanging out with jason, losing at pool with jason, going to psychology class, heidi lying for me, freaking out at my psychology test scores, laughing with michelle, hanging out with kim, getting a free cookie, returning a lost item, talking to tanesha, laughing with grcc employee, and then leaving.

well that was all of my day
mixed and thrown together.
my weekend is going to suck.
my paycheck will only cover my car payment, then a 3rd of my cellular bill.
fuck.
work was long.
i am getting a new jobs.
sleep finally.

ps; my pissed off post was made friends only.

don't make me mad in the morning; ill break your legs

2006-04-21T12:39:03Z

adam corolla is so fucking annoying.
I refuse to listen to 107.7 the end ever again.
he made an ass of himself on love line, now 5 days out of 7 he makes an ass out of himself more & more.
he talks about pointless shit.
and he also has the worse voice ever.
ugh why
I hope a large bus slams hard into his fancy car.
or his head.
POP
goes adams watermellon head
oh the image I get is so disgusting.
EWWGROSS

makeoutmusic @ 2006-04-20T09:17:00

2006-04-20T16:18:01Z

I WENT TO THE JUNGLE, AND CAME OUT LIKE A LION//

today was very exhasting.
mentally more so.
heidi and tanesha were conflicting,
so the emotions were high and low and no where inbetween.
i drank to much coffee, and so i threw up in the kgrg bathroom.
not attractive.
i will never eat sugar.
then jason spent money on a game of pool
which i am horrible at.
he cheered me up a lot.
thank you jason.

then me & heidi & jason went back to the "bench"
where so much was started, continued, and ended at.
for me and heidi atleast.

tonight is unknown;
so anyone up for some coffee?
unless someone has already filled my plans up ...

warm summer nights and death metal band practices in my backyard

2006-04-19T04:54:41Z

i know who reads this ...

my head hurts from the grease

2006-04-19T01:48:37Z

dear david,

thank you so much for coming down to the car dealership, then going to denny's. it was a lot of fun!

thank you,

bradley d.

erin was so right, when I called her for advice. only time will tell. don't say no but don't say yes. she is completely honest and blunt. thank you.

for some reason I am very tierd.
I have started writing everything down on paper. but that will all start tomrrow.
at 7:30. I am going to school way early.

what did I say

2006-04-18T04:47:41Z

yep, I was so right when I told you, when I eat super sweet things in abundence I would get sick.
guess what I am doing?
getting sick & sicker to my tummy.
urgh. fuck you chocolate.
I hate my body.

grosser still

I am a factory, producing & creating

2006-04-18T03:07:05Z

you still make me laugh; thank you so much.
this past weekend has been a blur.
I bought tapered jeans.
hung out with tanesha and sarah, and had a lot of laughs.
today was exhasting. I figured out my mass produced, manufactured feelings aren't manufactured anymore. for you or the new person. it was nice to finally meet someone new. sadly, they are ... in a relationship. heidi said her perception of my would change if I expressed them to the new person. why am I stuck with such shitty luck?
tomrrow I have a car appointment, someone should meet me at the auburn mazda and keep me company. please?
give me a ring ok?!!
I've been listening to so much death metal & black metal, I must have some inner hate issues.
you can't make people grow up fast.
am I growing up to fast?
today I looked good & I was suprised.
thank you tapered jeans.

david: (said something very funny)
me: hahahahahahahahahahahaha !!!

wow; I am so exhasted. why? I think I am depressed or my panic attacks have taken a toll on me. completely confused about my exhastion.

more later

damn my small font

2006-04-17T05:23:28Z

i can't read my small font.
so i just realized something.

i used to be so materialistic.

gross.

this morning brings joy

2006-04-14T15:18:24Z

these bands:

dear life
a love ends suicide

(look them up)
came up to the morning show.

wow; today has already started out amazing.
everyone was here & the bands were so nice.
one wants to buy an island.
today was very fun. dougnuts and coffee, and jones soda.
now we are reading some adds in the stranger.
i love seattle.
&& i love fridays.
work tonight.
no dancing.

: [

some asshole

2006-04-13T22:42:28Z

some asshole almost killed me today. i was driving, and there is this side light that people can go through the red if no one is going through on the main road. he was on his cell, didn't see me, and drove out. i blared my horn. that fucking idiot. haha; wow.

i left my psychology class early, because, lecturing from the book is the same as me reading the book.

i need to get somethings figured out, then i can get an idea of what will happen in the future.
but; i am not worried.

tomrrow is the 14th & everything, i mean everything
is happening on the 14th.

seriously; what the hell.

my hero

2006-04-13T16:28:43Z

&&&

my mornings are hilarious;

2006-04-13T16:27:24Z

hahaha kevin is hilarious.
look he is "glamourous & divine"
haha; kevin kevin.

then this hair.
wow boys; cut it or redye it.

PS;

2006-04-13T15:10:34Z

yes; i am happy right now.
but i might be getting glasses.

star jones is a cunt

2006-04-13T15:04:44Z

i got your email this morning.
its was very interesting, very.
its ok, i know how your feeling about wondering if today will be your day to meet that person.
i am always thinking about that.

today is going to be very good.
i spoke my rant today @ 7.15 on kgrg.
it was fun.

i met burning armada.
haha; heidi was like one looks like a girl.
but no; all guys, with "scene" hair & girl pants.
hahahahahahahaha !!!

more later.

thank goodness

2006-04-13T05:03:32Z

before you can love someone you msut love yourself fully.
even a few weeks ago, I didn't love myself as much as I do now.
you need to love yourself, faults and all, before you love anyone.
this is good I learned it and listened.
emotional and psychological bagage would of ruined it all.
don't think this about you, invisible reader,
it has to do with me.
then the relationships I form with everyone.
maybe more so with who I like.

jeans, and tshirts

2006-04-13T00:49:05Z

in reply to the email: lets just be good friends.

today my STUNNA shades broke.
so; i malled it with heidi and tanesha
bought some new, all white STUNNA shades.
saw chris and B.P.
i miss those kids now; i guess its because weve all changed so much.
me and erin talked a lot today. she makes me think, and rethink. she is like the older sister i never had.
completely honest, and i value that.

the dream ive been having
wont happen
the other person
nope
not even like me.
rejected!

well all i can say is something has to give.
i feel so open and raw
its more confusing then ever.

emails of disapointment & truth & honesty; expect nothing else.

2006-04-12T14:42:18Z

i want to talk to you, and i understand your email clearly. i am ok, but i am so used to this disapointment, that i should of grown used to it. but i wont let it get to me. i am letting go, clearing the feelings, and clearing my mind. its over, but we will still be friends. friends; thats what we will be. i am glad i was honest though. it saved me more than you know.
today started out rough, but i am ok.
more later.
kgrg time.

my fingers typed the truth for once

2006-04-12T05:53:44Z

I was honest, but I am sure I let slip once or twice how I felt about you. this is what I hate when feelings aren't mutual. it sucks so much because I always feel like a complete loser when I drop the truth. I feel like a complete idiot. I am so sorry. but feelings are feelings. this is why I am so confused.
figuring out truth from lies is harder still.
this quarter did start out with a bang.
way to fuck up a friendship.
but gold stars for being honest.
yet did I fuck up the friendship?
I hate not knowing.

wow bradley

2006-04-12T03:24:48Z

i cant stop thinking about how much it sucks to see everyone else so happy with their life, with their relationships, and so on. i am not jealous, but i always try to be happy for everyone who is happy, but it is so hard because i want to be happy. i know it sounds so codependent. but i am not. i dont HAVE someone. but being lonely is horrible and frightening.

that is all for now.